Life’s been rolling past me lately, quicker than I’d like to admit. It seems like only yesterday I was putting on my cap ‘n gown, adjusting my high-heel shoes and taking hundreds of pictures with friends and family to commemorate the single greatest moment [to date] of my life. Oh well, what should have been. I guess I never pictured the single most important day of my life [so far] to float by so quickly, almost like none of it actually happened. It all seemed so surreal, like a reoccurring distant dream, where I’d wake up the following day, sitting in class bored out of my mind, or hanging out with friends downtown.
Press fast-forward a couple of months and you’ll find me to be a completely different person. I’ll tell you what, getting a job and supporting yourself is extremely humbling [even in a town you're somewhat familiar with]. It really places value upon the important things and the not so important things. It also places value on certain friendships of mine. While I’ve made a bunch of new friends since starting this new chapter in my life, I’ve also disconnected a few, which I’ve uncontrollably left behind in the previous chapter. I’m honestly not so sad to see some of these friendships go, and others I wish we had more time [and no, I don’t need wiseasses guessing as to what I’m getting at because you have absolutely no idea unless you’re inside my head]. But as with anything, life goes on. We live, learn and hopefully retain what has been taught.
Since stepping foot into the adult world I’ve learned that no one will take you seriously unless you take the intuitive to take yourself seriously. I’ve had to do some serious revamping on my persona to make this vision into a reality. Also, take everything with a grain of salt. You’ll come across dozens of critics (with no credibility) throughout your life, and people are always going to tell you what they think you should do, how you should feel, what you should believe in, what you should say etc. In the end though, it is ultimately up to you to use your better judgment to weed out the unusable information.
Also, people lie. Everyone lies [at some point in their lives], but everyone’s reasons for doing so differ from their own personal benefit, to intentionally hurting those that they love. You have to learn when and when it is not appropriate to lie and how to tell when someone is lying. Generally though, lying [excessively] comes back to haunt you. Most importantly you should never lie to yourself, because you’re about the most gullible person you know [when it comes to your own lies].
Without realizing it, someone looks up to you. Someone [or some people] think you’re amazing. Try to set a positive example for not only them, but yourself. There’s nothing more rewarding than hearing someone say [overhearing or hearing from another source] that they admire or look-up to you. Regardless of age difference, you should feel honored.
I apologize for becoming extremely philosophical all of a sudden, but having lunch with Damian [a high school friend of mine] really put a lot of the random shattered windows in my life into perspective and that maybe I should be more proactive into fixing said windows. Life’s what you make it; no one can truly control that but you.
Anyway, lunch went over very well and I’m glad we got to catch up [even if it was in the horribleness that is Greenville’s mall]. Hopefully this won’t be the last time we hang-out for a while. In other news, I’ve started to hibernate in segments [i.e. my 12+ hours of sleep last night]. A little early I know, but with me going to Mexico this week and next, there’ll be no time for mindless slumber. Since I don’t know when I’ll be going back, I’ll have to make the absolute most of it while I’m down there. I don’t mind being a little tired, if I can experience absolute paradise.
Hmm…well 2.5 days until sunny vacation. Let’s see if I can make it there without losing my natural mind.
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